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a first.

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 04:24:09 GMT

the first time lance and i went home together from school. haha. pa-sweet.

Scorpio - The Addict

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 12:50:29 GMT

SCORPIO - The Addict
Extremely adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very good sens of humor. Energetic. Predict future. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

My Celebrity Look-alikes

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 10:27:16 GMT

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 17:47:50 GMT

wag mo na lang kaya ako kausapin?

nasasaktan lang ako.

i'm not meant to be an english writer..sorryü

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 12:49:42 GMT

hindi naman talaga ako magaling magsulat sa wikang ingles. noon, inasam kong mapayabong ang aking kakayanan sa wikang ito, ngunit hindi nga yata talaga kami para sa isa't isa.

hindi ito ganoon kawili-wili para sa akin kumpara sa wikang filipino. mas naaaliw at naiintriga ako sa malalalim na salitang tagalog kaysa sa malalalim na salitang ingles. may kakaibang tawag-pansin ang mga ganitong salita sa akin. ang kinalabasan tuloy, mas gusto ko ang magsulat ng mga kathang hinahaluan ng malalalim na filipino.

kaya naman, pakiramdam ko talaga, hindi ako itinalaga na maging isang manunulat sa ingles.

hindi ko alam kung bakit ganoon, ngunit mas nakapaimbulog na ang aking kaisipan sa filipino.

sana, sa filipino na lang ninyo ako pasulatin.ü

evanescence part ii..

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 13:50:08 GMT

Imaginary by Evanescence

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear
Of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming monsters
Calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops as they’re falling tell a story

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

If you need to leave the world you live in
Lay your head down and stay a while
Though you may not remember dreaming
Something waits for you to breathe again

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

.::another song of evanescence to enjoyü::.

evanescence..

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 13:50:59 GMT

Missing by Evanescence

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you,
I'll wake without you there.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Everybody's Fool by Evanescence

Perfect by nature, icons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world

That never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don’t you see me?
You know you’ve got everybody fooled.

Look here she comes now,
Bow down and stare in wonder.
Oh, how we love you
No flaws when you’re pretending
But now I know she

Never was and never will be
You don’t know how you betrayed me
And somehow you’ve got everybody fooled.

Without the mask
Where will you hide?
Can’t find yourself,
Lost in your lies

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don’t love you anymore

Never was and never will be
You don’t know how you betrayed me
And somehow you’ve got everybody fooled.

Never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
And somehow now you’re everybody’s fool

**amy lee's vocals makes me super hooked on the band's music..**

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 14:41:57 GMT

Self-pity
by D.H. Lawrence

I never saw a wild thing
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
without ever having felt sorry for itself.

/*i first heard this poem from the film G.I. Jane, which starred Demi Moore..and i find it really good..i guess this poem just fits my life today, and can be a source of inspiration..*/

kakabagsak ko lang..nadapa na naman ako..marahil sa isang balong mahirap makaahon..pero ano ngayon?..handa akong magpakahirap umakyat..marahil matagal bago ko magawa iyon..pero..gagawin ko..

tatayo ako ulit..hindi ako papayag na manatiling sadlak sa kadilimang nag-aalis ng buhay sa aking mga mata..

tao lang ako..maaaring sabihing makasarili sa pagnanais na maging magaling..ngunit kung ito ba'y para sa kanya, masama nga bang maghangad ng isang pangarap na kay tagal nang niyapos ng puso't isipan?

tao nga lang ako..ikaw rin..at alam ko at alam mo kung ano ang halaga natin sa mundo..

hindi na ako nasanay..

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 13:50:00 GMT

It has been, more or less, thirteen years now, that my father leaves for his work and seems invincible, intangible.

I have aged. From that three-year old girl, I have become a sixteen-old college student. Still, I'm not used to it.

I'm still not used to see him leaving. (gosh..i can feel salty water flowing from my eyes..) And though it makes me sad to admit it, he's doing it again.

Yes, these petty tears may be falling because no one would drive me to school four times a week, or because no one would drive to bring me home under a night sky. But I believe there's more to that that only those like me would really understand.

But what can I do?

Hindi pa rin ako sanay..

sa satirika..ö

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 14:28:40 GMT

heya..ahaha..

kakanood ko pa lang ng satirika..ung play ng entablado..

waah..ang ganda..aliw..ang daming mahininuha mula roon..

ang galing din nung mga performers..professional na professional..

astig.

hai..i really love theater..

i would also want to perform in front of an audience someday..

and be able to receive applauds from them..

haii..

isang part p lang un ng day ko..

halos ung iba kasi nalulungkot na ako..sobra..hai..

anyway..

ahaha..kumakanta pala ako sa math..

i mean sa math class..hehe..bago dumating si ma'am..

noon dalawa lang kami ni ayet..

tapos sumama na si amy..eh di trio na..

kanina naman sumama sina vinni (sorry, di me sure sa spelling) at pati si walter..

ahaha..dami na namin!

saya!

aun..aun lang muna..ü

waah..ö

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 15:29:10 GMT

waah..

natatakot na ako para bukas..

feeling ko talaga ako ang weakest link sa group namin..

at hindi worthy na i-recruit nung mga teammates ko..

help po Lord!

kayo na po bahala sa akin..

at sa teammates ko..

just for the love of debating..
..though i am not sure that it loves me too..

kayo na po talaga bahala Lord..ü

ang en..bow..ö

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 14:05:58 GMT

remember the thing i told you about the recitations i did in my En 11 class? (if not, just see the post before this update..thanksö)

ahehe..wala lang..i just want to share what was it about..

our En prof taught us how to hit two birds in one shot..she gave us a technique that she actually use for her own compositions (my En prof is a columnist in the Phil. Star and at the same time a Bukas Palad ministry soprano..bongga!)..

here's the technique: you have to make 6 columns..the first column is for the abstract things you want to define or describe in your paper..Taste, Sound, Look, Smell, Feel are the titles of the next columns respectively..then with the abstract ideas already written on the leftmost column, you can now begin filling the table..you can ask yourself: "how does the Ateneo campus(for example) feel like?" and so on and so forth..

so you're actually concretizing the absract ideas you have in your paper and at the same time, preparing your paper to be able to appeal to your readers' senses..

ahehe..so..asan ang nirecite ko?

during the discussion, we had a sample table on the board..with the abstract ideas: the Ateneo campus, excitement, determination, and the cafeteria.. and we had to fill it out..

so i shared one answer..

it was,

Determination sounds like the endless effort of a truck stuck in mud.

and guess what?

my prof was like: good..that was a nice answer..
my classmates became quiet..

samantalang ako..tama ba 'yung sagot ko?

ahehe..tapos aun..nagpatuloy na kmi ulit..

then i decided to recite again..

it was for the cafeteria..

The cafeteria sounds like a colony of bees buzzing endlessly.

and my prof was smiling..

ahehe..maybe because i was starting to participate na talaga in class..

ngayon-ngayon lang kasi ako talaga nagrerecite..

kaya ang saya ko..ahehe..kasi di mali-mali 'yung mga ginawa ko..ü

hihihiü

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 13:42:01 GMT

hehe..

this day was fun..

akala ko nga hindi eh..pero kahit na ang mga bagay-bagay ay hindi ko mababago at macocontrol ok pa rin..

..mejo nahapit ako at ang mga classmates ko sa fil kanina..ang ikli kasi ng time para mainterpret nmen ng maayos ung 6 n tulang binigay sa part 1 ng midterm nmin sa pinoi..

hehe..pero enjoi p rin ang araw na ito..

i recited a lot in my En 11 class and got affirmative looks from my prof for my seemingly nonsense answers..ahehe..pero pinag-isipan ko talaga ung mga sagot na un!..ahehe..ang kulit!ö

and i was especially happy because of the result of my math midterm..
(miss was really kind in finding a way to make my borderline mark increase by a point, so that my letter grade would be an A..indeed, it was a dream came true and a prayer answered..)

kaya thank you po Lord..

thank you po talagaü

self-pity..ö

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 13:05:08 GMT

i washed that printed paper with tears..

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 11:55:59 GMT

haii..

long test na nman nmin sa math knina..
3rd long test n nmin un..
at ewan ko kung ano n nman ang kllbasan nun..

i am sad.
nalulungkot ako kasi parang di n aq 'to.
ako ngaun ay tila malayo sa kinagisnan kong aq

noon, masaya ako sa mga kinalalabasan ng exams ko sa math
mahal na mahal ko kaya ang mathü

pero ngaun..ewan ko ba
ewan ko ba kung anong nangyayari..

gusto ko sanang maging malakas sa subj n un..
paborito ko un eh..
dun aq magaling noon..
pero, bkit ngaun..?

gusto ko sanang maging magaling ulit dun..

ang mga magagandang marka ko kasi sa subj n un,
ang nagsisilbing pambayad ko
sa lahat ng mga ginagawa ng mga magulang ko para sa'kin

kaya ngaun nalulungkot ako
kasi hindi ko magawang
bayaran ng talagang magandang balita
ang paghihirap nila..

at isa pa,

ang alam ng nakararami sa mga kakilala ko..
magaling ako sa math..

at nahihiya aq..
na hindi ko kayang pangatawanan ang naabot ko sa high school..

gusto ko sanang pangatawanan un..

pero..

anong problema ko?